I'm trying to keep up with my deviantart! I haven't draw so much in a year. Just some here and there. Now that summer is has gone pretty deep I want to try to get more drawing done. I want to try to sharpen my realistic drawing skills but I also want to draw and create from my mind, something I envision so much but have trouble doing
It's really a shame I have fallen out of that, and it makes me upset to think about how much art has gone away from me since I started college and my first job. I don't have any summer classes so I am just trying to work as much as I can (even though that only amounts to about 20-25 hours a week
). It's good to work and hang out with friends almost every day. So this summer has been more exciting than my past ones, but I don't want to lose touch with who I have been. I miss drawing, manga, anime, and video games ahahah. I'm trying to slowly submerge myself back into that! I really don't want to lose those hobbies/passions of mine. Hopefully the rest of this summer I can enjoy more of those things. I'm still in my dorm, living out the rest of my lease. Then I will be back at home from the end of July to mid August with my family! I miss them so much, so I am very excited I'll get to be with them. Then I move into my new dorm...to start my sophomore year. Yeah I think I also have lost my witty writing and tone. Eng 1102 hurt me so roodly and I started questioning my writing. Gone are the days where I was creative and had confidence in my writing and imagination. I remember when I used to think of characters and picture their lives and fantasy. I used to write and draw some fantastic things. Sigh...I'm mourning my past lol. Well I am still the same person. I'm just changing a little. Watching a lot of anime movies (mostly Ghibli) has imbued my mind with the urge to do something with my heart or soul. Something creative...I want to transfer myself to another world, a world of something surreal and unreal to us. I want to see more of this world definitely, that is one of my life goals, but I also always yearn to lengthen my grasp so I could maybe reach another one...