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this is not all of my art..I have done a lot more, this is just what I have here at the moment

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I am feeling a little better now leading up to my departure BUT I am still going to be heavily anxious/worry-driven and nervous moments before I leave. It's just the entire process of the airport/riding is so foreign to me. And also my phone situation is giving me a little bit of uneasiness but hopefully that will be resolved soon.  I have several more things to purchase before I leave and once that's done I just need to review what I need to do at the airport as well as maybe studying some Korean however I know that I probably won't get to the Korean part much because of my normal procrastination...
Doing yoga has helped me, body-wise, health-wise and mind-wise. At least I FEEL better...And I am hoping it's not just me THINKING i feel better. 
I have 10 more days of working at my job before I move out of my dorm for the summer..Then I will go home for a few days. I leave to go to S. Korea on July 1...Tonight especially I have started to feel somewhat nauseated & nervous & anxious so I know that when I am actually heading to the airport/at the airport/arriving to the country, the feeling will be amplified x10. I have a jumbled assortment of thoughts ricocheting in my mind constantly :'( & I have strange pessimistic thoughts about the trip because it is my first time riding a plane and leaving the country...I HATE being paranoid. 
I still dont have my drivers license. That's ok though because I can continue walking for the rest of my lifelong days of bliss. Im going to be a senior in college. That's funny because I just looked back onto my journal entries here and saw what i wrote about starting senior year....of high school. That's 4 years. I hope I have accomplished *some* things since then, if not then that's a huge damn problem. 
I am going to study abroad in Seoul this summer, for one month, if all goes well. When I look back and view my life thus far, my entrance into college was definitely a new book. I would like to say that going abroad will be the next book. The book I am on now, I feel as if though it has been lacking the climax, action, resolution, meaning, depth, etc. that would be integral for a fascinating read. But that isn't necessarily bad? It could just mean that this book was supposed to be unremarkable and not as vigorously emotional and cathartic as I envisioned it. So not everything has to be amazing all the time. I don't have to build a palace or travel to every corner and touch every piece of grass in the world. I mean. I want to -- that is still my goal, but as of this moment I feel somewhat content just being...plain. Plain can be good..? .......? Plain can be good. Plain bagel. Plain oatmeal. Plain potatoes. Plain rice. (Carbs). When something is plain then it is an open landscape -- it is untraversed, and unsoiled and therefore instead of already having a set flavor, it can be a canvas (I dont want to use this overused word) for a multitude of other spices, seasonings, ingredients and components. I love food. So maybe this book and the next book were like a 2 parter (but not to made into a cinematography, no. You don't need to be seeing my washed up face on the screen. Anywhere or anytime) and thats why this book has been going steady for a while and kind of "hguh" for a while. Im not using meh or eh because that is not an accurate letter description and that shit. It's PLAYED.. Hguh is fine. Hguh has a lot of meaning endowed within it. it works. Im going with it ok.

Also work made me sweat today bc mothers day thats why and also this whole week and last week was sweat-filled as well and I am still working on an unfinished final exam that was due 2 days ago and also but one good thing my poop has been beautiful because I had around 5 grapefruits this week and it rendered my bowel movements into a symphonic medley of time and space and energy and Yes. Ok. And I don't care if I have a defecation fixation. I need to get my shit in order for this trip bc if i dont, i mean I will still be a scumdirtbag regardless but I would love to be a scumdirtbag that is at least casually and lightly dusted and maybe wiped down a little so it doesn't look entirely like a bombarded loaf of bread thrown into the lake with the fish and the other creatures with gills (hopefully one day i will stop eating you all). 
So sad...I have really fallen out of art. A year ago since I had 2 art classes I was creating & working a lot but it was more on the basis of me having to for assignments although it did allow me to reach within myself and expand my limits as far as technical skills and creative and critical thinking with art. 
My goal is to slowly let art seep back into my life over the course of the next few months. Since last Fall I have been doodling here and there but it hasn't been anything phenomenal. It is crazy when I think that 3 to 4 years ago in high school I seemed to be at my pinnacle as an artist. I ponder on the idea of if I had continued art seriously from my freshman year of college to now, I wonder how my art would have developed and matured? :( It makes me regretful but I think that once I became enveloped in college & the *real* adult world then that's when I lost the motivation and the passion and curious mind. My mind sucks right now. I'm not creative like I used to be, I'm not as smart, I'm not remarkable and I have barely used a pencil to draw a portrait or create anything on paper, much less any art in general. I know I'm young but in my perspective I feel like I am losing time..Which I'm not necessarily but I cannot shake off the feeling. 

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Isla
Artist | Hobbyist | Traditional Art
United States
My screen name was a product of me trying to be creative. It's kind of meh. I'll change it one day.

July 2014:
Y'know when I was a young warthog, I was all into my anime, video games and manga. I fantasized about these worlds and drew and wrote. Now I'm just kinda eh....What happened to me??? Anyway, here is where you can find mostly older art I did when I was in high school (I'm entering my sophomore year of college this Fall and wow that is frightening when I actually type that and think about it). Damn.....

I want my art to represent something. Now it doesn't really. It's just technical work but hopefully soon I can develop something I truly call my own :) I don't want to lose my love for drawing.

"Sometimes clouds have two sides, a dark and light, and a silver lining in between. It's like a silver sandwich! So when life seems hard, just take a bite out of the silver sandwich "

-- Prince Zuko
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I am feeling a little better now leading up to my departure BUT I am still going to be heavily anxious/worry-driven and nervous moments before I leave. It's just the entire process of the airport/riding is so foreign to me. And also my phone situation is giving me a little bit of uneasiness but hopefully that will be resolved soon.  I have several more things to purchase before I leave and once that's done I just need to review what I need to do at the airport as well as maybe studying some Korean however I know that I probably won't get to the Korean part much because of my normal procrastination...
Doing yoga has helped me, body-wise, health-wise and mind-wise. At least I FEEL better...And I am hoping it's not just me THINKING i feel better. 

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sheena6556 Featured By Owner May 9, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you so much for the watch Isla Shinee Hug - Taemin and Jonghyun 
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luminousBrink Featured By Owner May 22, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
welcome!!! :)
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Pappa60 Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2016
Tank you wery much for the llama and for faving my hippo :-)
Looking forward o see more from you
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luminousBrink Featured By Owner May 8, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Not a problem :) Look forward to seeing your work as well !! :D
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tsukiko-kiyomidzu Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you for the watch! :D I really appreciate it! :hug:
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luminousBrink Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Not a problem at all! your art is beautiful!
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Fortuneless Featured By Owner May 27, 2015  Student Digital Artist
Frog dance Squidward Sexy (Dance) 
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luminousBrink Featured By Owner May 31, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
awwwwwwwwwww yiah son


 
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Fortuneless Featured By Owner May 31, 2015  Student Digital Artist
I'm back :vhs: Jongin saying Bye Bye 
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luminousBrink Featured By Owner May 31, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
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AHHHHHHHHHHHH THEY CHANGED IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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